THATS one of my THREE doggies...BIBO! smile :P 

OK! I'm back...watching tv (what am I watching? NEMOOO!! hihi) 

Alszheimer?!?!

After one month and a half I finally had class today... Why is that? Let me explain... I lost one week, before Easter, because I went to barcelona and then it was Easter (two weeks) and then we didn't have class because of the teachers stroke... Everytime is the same s***, and maybe on Thursday we won't be having any class! Neway, I'm not going to start my complains for the greek stupid uni.!!

So today, I finally had class! To go to my university is like 20 min in the metro and 20 in the bus... So I walked out the door (of my house), put on my sunglasses (who are really big! funny,cause I used to hate big ones), turn on my i-pod and started walking to the nearest metro station... I walked and walked... I finally got there, then I suddenly thought of my blog... And that yesterday I was thinking bout smthing and told to myself to share it with you... but I was in my parents house (=no pc!!!) :( I was like"ok, I'm not going to forget it anyway" but of course I did... So I was there, in the metro taking out my note book and writing little subjects of my routine that I could add in my blog...

so that's what I wrote:

1) Eurovision. Athens 2006! Greek obsession finally realised... why an obsession? well, being in Geneva and France I noticed that people weren't really interested in it, they didn't even watched it... Just send a good song just to be in the first 10, and that will do the work!!! When, here, in Greece, things are DIFFERENT!!! Everybody's talking 'bout it! almost all year around... who should sing the next time? oh, if he didn't make it no one will...That was last years deception after we got the fifth place... now that I'm hearing last years song...it wasnt such a good one,(but didnt like the first also) but everybody here DiD really believe,me included, that we were about to get the first place.... and that was not just because we had a nice bit, but because we where brain washed by the medias 5 months earlier!!! and everybody was really dissapointed... this year it was kinda better but you could still feel a bit the 'fanatism' of some people... I feel strange 'bout that because the eurovision was 'made' to get the nations closer, but I just didn't felt that... Maybe that's the Mediteranian patriotism but It bothers me...OK! not saying that I'm not proud that we won, I'm SUPER EXCITED!..but...

2) Why do people like me don't have the self estime they should? And why people that should see that there is smtg wrong bout them don't look the mirror (not only physically! but I'm talking bout spirituality,intelligence,openess...characters)...
I don't know, but going out with a friend of mine on Saturday night and a friend of her, I realised something just talking with two guys who joined us (friends of us)... I was actiouly the only one,practicly talking with them because the other girl (dont even remember her name was only talking to my girl friend) So we were talking and suddenly one of them just asked me what I thought about him*surprising cause his such a good person that I could never think smtg bad, so I told him with complete honesty and just for the laugh I asked him back... surprise... And then he asked his friend (which I knew for a couple of hours) and... surprise... They were telling me that I'm an open/minded person, that I know how to connect and atrack people to talk to me, that I'm funny and that I'm an interesting person to hang out with... (am I?) hehe but the biggest surprise is when they told me that they were grateful for me being there because the others didn't talk and that i'm not shy.... Why did that surprised me??? Because it's totally wrong!!! I'm shy, that's why I'm saying all this funny stupid things, and everyone can have a big laugh... I fear of what my mouth is going to through away! So I'm telling funny things so they can laugh at them and not at me(and the weirdest is that dispite of my fear, I adore being on the high light!)... So getting to the metro today, re-thinking about my weekend I was perplexed, why should I feel this way? I'm smart, funny, creative etc... and other people that aren't are moraly feeling better than I do!!!so weird! so unfair! but maybe that's why I'm all this... I'm doing firstly autocritisism (did I spell it correctly? neway its surely not my first mistake lol!!!) and then see what is wrong bout others...
(even Dali was sick when he had to speak in front of people,not audience, but in conversations too...he was thrilled)

3) Finally find out my state of heart "sick and tired" by anastasia (notising the words i felt a bit like that) hmmm...maybe a lot!!

4) Obsession 'bout food... foodddddd... I was writting and noticed that the woman next to me was reading the journal...so...there were all kind of subjects... war! eurovision! athens summer festivals! politics! hhiihi and then she turned the page and there was an enormous recepy of a perfect dessert... just wanted to ask her what journal it was so I could then go and get it...lol !!! I'm really difficult at food.. I practicly don't eat a lot of things and I hate it when something is touching something I don't like BEURK! hihi( i know...i'm a bit spoiled!) but when it comes to smtg I like,adore, i might even say cherish I'm going crazy!!!!hihi miami! and sometimes i fantasys "wouldn't be nice if we had...?" and i might just finished eating... lol... and then I wonder... If I'm having fantasies what do big/fat people have???? lol (maybe they just accomplish them hahaha)

mmmm...
And all started because I forgot what I wanted to write!hihi

oh! I should get finaly a digital camera so u will have more pics and news of my "vie quotidienne"

take care :P

so weird! i draw this one at school the11 sept 2001 ( :S ) the colors were made by the computer(nice, no?)its a black and white originaly..pencil, you know

just playing like a child! lol, future Miro...hihi 

Creation

I was reading the other day my diary from Geneva/Ferney.. It wasn't a diary really, just thoughts, I was depressed,(again?!?!?!) :P and writing down my feelings helped me a lot... At the beginning I didn't know what to say, and then I couldn't stop! My feelings where transformed into words/phrases/paragraphs... I was so happy after this hole process...

+ I was writing quotes that I liked: "le beau est tjr bizarre" Baudelaire (beauty is always weird).. or that touched me,like: "on dirait que mon coeur et mon esprit n'appartiennent pas au meme individu" Rousseau (u could say that my heart and soul sometimes don't belong to the same person)... Lyrics of my favorite songs, pictures, postcards I was receiving and things like that...

I haven't touched it since I left Geneva, and reading all this stuff again,made me realized that I didn't remember that I had spent so much time on this thing...! Like an obsession... And I'm like this when I'm doing something creative, like drawing etc... Time goes by like a sec. I feel my head burning from ideas and I can't follow my "rushing" thoughts... they are sooo much and passing through my mind soooo quickly!!! I adore those moments... Even if at the end I'm like"what is this now?"(for my pict.) I'm enjoying so much the process that the answer is "meeee!!!!driving you crazy" lol and that's my answer to anyone who asks me... (but of course I really do know what it is, or why did I draw that, or how it ended up to be like that...you know.. the story "behind the scenes")

lol...

I will try to post a few pics of my "art" (dont like the word to much cause I don't consider myself as an artist,eventhough I believe that everyone has an artist-part) so you could do some critics... :S

Did God felt like this when he created the world? (just wondering) he might... he treasure us like we treasure smthg we created, no?

I'm superwow

I told you that I'm superwow,no??? ok ..sounds a bit pswnio (if you dont know greek...sorry..but u can imagine) lol but YOU adore ME!!!..otherwise you would NOT stay here, in front of ur screen reading all the crap that i'm writing..hihi

lol..not having much to say... but Daliz will be back... hihi (so influenced by his work!!!!) so maybe if im going crazy its a good thing!!! I'll be a legend like him... hihi (talking bout dali....u know... yes...yes....!!! the painter!!sculptor!!!! writer!!!!!! director....mmm the last one not soooo important)

xxxx

take care

no comments...(thats ur job...hihi)

Numb

This period of my life is soooo weird... soooo strange... I don't know what I want, what I seek for the future... or the present... i'm having "strange highs and strange lows" (just to quote dm lol)! I'm finally free, not involved, and soooo grateful for that... tired of being in a relation that leeds nowhere, and tired to even think to start one! But loneliness is unbearable to me... Trying to do so much things, not having the time to think about how I feel. Today just being with friends and then with my sister, having fun was so nice... But suddenly in the in betweens I felt the need to burst into tears,not knowing really why... I'm feeling like going crazy, needing a schrink or something!!!

My heart started to seek for help, unconsciously I started praying... And that reminded me that God is a listener and I'm truly happy for all what his doing for us.... he provides us with such a lot of things... (compation, safety, spiritual "food"...). even if we dont deserve it... :s

neway, I'm having my "crisis" period!!!

I think that a lot of people, even friends of mine don't know me at all... I'm sure that they don't know or understand my religious convictions... or my family problems... so do I finally have any friends?

I surely do... And they are few... and I don't want more....

So grateful, of having you guys!!! love

Hope/Faith/Romance

world full of nothing

That's what I'm hearing all day long... Even in lyrics! If it's true, what makes us trying/ pushes us to survive? Why bother?

Hope.

Hope for a better day, a better tomorrow... Where the sky is blue, and sometimes grey: but not because of the pollution, but because it's natural.. to rain! So the trees can grow up, the flowers flourish and fill the world of colors... Like a Monets' painting! Capturing your heart for eternity! Because we desire, we want such perfect life for eternity as those landscapes (not a "world full of nothing") So we HOPE... And Hope never dies, and if she does: you can take your life away... :P

Faith.

Faith of knowing/believing in someones love and protection. I would quote only this:

Like a shepherd he will shepherd his own drove. With his arm he will collect together the lambs; and in his bosom he will carry them. Those giving suck he will conduct with care

Romance.

I think that what we seek is to feel that we are "special". Of course, everyone is unique, not only physicaly but spiritualy too... But do we feel special? Maybe there are a lot of answers, because there are no right or wrong ones... as:

1. when we success/ reach a goal
2. when we are content of what we have *truly rare!
3. when we realise how blessed we are with our life... Precious gift.

I always felt in a weird way that I wasn't "ordinary", even in my biggest depretion, maybe that's because no one understands me completely(well, I don't!) lol!!! I'm a dreamer... I feel special: when someone cares, when I feel loved, when I can sit on the beach and let the wind blow up my mind,when I can take a pencil: take out my soul and draw something from the bottom of my heart... when... when...

Do you feel that? Someone told me the other day that "it's funny how you talk and see things... With such an artistic way"... Mmmm, I don't know what is the "artistic" way but I would say a romantic one... Romance! We all hope for Romance, and one thing is for sure... I'm a true romantic... Hope for romance.... I don't mean silly flowers all over the place/candies/choco etc... That's not romance.... Those are "traps", and corruption is there with wide open arms... and pain... heartbreaking...

Romance is important, it's a way to show to someone how much he/she is important to you and make him/her feel unique! Everybody wants that, seeks and hope to find that! If not? They are lying... Because WE NEED someone we can count on, even if we know deep in our hearts that we are never alone... Someone who never forgets us, is always around: God!

Thank you

beautiful 

WELCOME 

entrance: Parc Guell 

Barcelona

Already passed a month since our first day in Barcelona... God, how time passes me by! I had so much fun, that it seems to me it was just yesterday! Learning new things, new places, new people!!! Open up my spiritual horizons!! Ready to "seize the moment"... My mind is stuck there... To those "carefree" days and nights!

Today, at work, I had some problems with my knee, I couldn't walk properly... That made me think how important it is for the human body to relax, like in Barcelona, and we really got tired from going to one place to another... Finally, what it really important is the peace of the mind, our soul needs to have some moments to get away, to relax! Man wasn't conceive to work like we do nowadays. He was made by God's love ... And supposed to live in Paradise (meaning earth), and his only worry would have been to make hundreds of babies and take care of the land. Ironically, the only thing he did with success was to destroy "his" planet and to work, and work, and work... For what? Money? Safety? Pessimistic thoughts are running through my mind, the only thing I want is to have my few days of serenity transformed into my life!!! Can I have this? Pure peace of mind.