Alszheimer?!?!

After one month and a half I finally had class today... Why is that? Let me explain... I lost one week, before Easter, because I went to barcelona and then it was Easter (two weeks) and then we didn't have class because of the teachers stroke... Everytime is the same s***, and maybe on Thursday we won't be having any class! Neway, I'm not going to start my complains for the greek stupid uni.!!

So today, I finally had class! To go to my university is like 20 min in the metro and 20 in the bus... So I walked out the door (of my house), put on my sunglasses (who are really big! funny,cause I used to hate big ones), turn on my i-pod and started walking to the nearest metro station... I walked and walked... I finally got there, then I suddenly thought of my blog... And that yesterday I was thinking bout smthing and told to myself to share it with you... but I was in my parents house (=no pc!!!) :( I was like"ok, I'm not going to forget it anyway" but of course I did... So I was there, in the metro taking out my note book and writing little subjects of my routine that I could add in my blog...

so that's what I wrote:

1) Eurovision. Athens 2006! Greek obsession finally realised... why an obsession? well, being in Geneva and France I noticed that people weren't really interested in it, they didn't even watched it... Just send a good song just to be in the first 10, and that will do the work!!! When, here, in Greece, things are DIFFERENT!!! Everybody's talking 'bout it! almost all year around... who should sing the next time? oh, if he didn't make it no one will...That was last years deception after we got the fifth place... now that I'm hearing last years song...it wasnt such a good one,(but didnt like the first also) but everybody here DiD really believe,me included, that we were about to get the first place.... and that was not just because we had a nice bit, but because we where brain washed by the medias 5 months earlier!!! and everybody was really dissapointed... this year it was kinda better but you could still feel a bit the 'fanatism' of some people... I feel strange 'bout that because the eurovision was 'made' to get the nations closer, but I just didn't felt that... Maybe that's the Mediteranian patriotism but It bothers me...OK! not saying that I'm not proud that we won, I'm SUPER EXCITED!..but...

2) Why do people like me don't have the self estime they should? And why people that should see that there is smtg wrong bout them don't look the mirror (not only physically! but I'm talking bout spirituality,intelligence,openess...characters)...
I don't know, but going out with a friend of mine on Saturday night and a friend of her, I realised something just talking with two guys who joined us (friends of us)... I was actiouly the only one,practicly talking with them because the other girl (dont even remember her name was only talking to my girl friend) So we were talking and suddenly one of them just asked me what I thought about him*surprising cause his such a good person that I could never think smtg bad, so I told him with complete honesty and just for the laugh I asked him back... surprise... And then he asked his friend (which I knew for a couple of hours) and... surprise... They were telling me that I'm an open/minded person, that I know how to connect and atrack people to talk to me, that I'm funny and that I'm an interesting person to hang out with... (am I?) hehe but the biggest surprise is when they told me that they were grateful for me being there because the others didn't talk and that i'm not shy.... Why did that surprised me??? Because it's totally wrong!!! I'm shy, that's why I'm saying all this funny stupid things, and everyone can have a big laugh... I fear of what my mouth is going to through away! So I'm telling funny things so they can laugh at them and not at me(and the weirdest is that dispite of my fear, I adore being on the high light!)... So getting to the metro today, re-thinking about my weekend I was perplexed, why should I feel this way? I'm smart, funny, creative etc... and other people that aren't are moraly feeling better than I do!!!so weird! so unfair! but maybe that's why I'm all this... I'm doing firstly autocritisism (did I spell it correctly? neway its surely not my first mistake lol!!!) and then see what is wrong bout others...
(even Dali was sick when he had to speak in front of people,not audience, but in conversations too...he was thrilled)

3) Finally find out my state of heart "sick and tired" by anastasia (notising the words i felt a bit like that) hmmm...maybe a lot!!

4) Obsession 'bout food... foodddddd... I was writting and noticed that the woman next to me was reading the journal...so...there were all kind of subjects... war! eurovision! athens summer festivals! politics! hhiihi and then she turned the page and there was an enormous recepy of a perfect dessert... just wanted to ask her what journal it was so I could then go and get it...lol !!! I'm really difficult at food.. I practicly don't eat a lot of things and I hate it when something is touching something I don't like BEURK! hihi( i know...i'm a bit spoiled!) but when it comes to smtg I like,adore, i might even say cherish I'm going crazy!!!!hihi miami! and sometimes i fantasys "wouldn't be nice if we had...?" and i might just finished eating... lol... and then I wonder... If I'm having fantasies what do big/fat people have???? lol (maybe they just accomplish them hahaha)

mmmm...
And all started because I forgot what I wanted to write!hihi

oh! I should get finaly a digital camera so u will have more pics and news of my "vie quotidienne"

take care :P